full circle

It’s ironic, when I think about it, how much my life has gone, if not full circle, come back around again.

dreams go grey

what once foreseen
will never stay

taking chances

I'm feeling a little bit like the guy over there on the left - like a deer caught in the headlights right now.  Well, I did it; I went public.  Okay, not exactly what you're thinking right now, but to me it's as dramatic as that.  

pojedu domů/i'm going home

It's been almost nine years since I've been home, so long that I'd given up on going back.  I cried a little when I submitted my application for my third passport, I've had a U.S.passport for more than half my life now, I feel old.  I cried a little more when I received it in the mail two weeks later - the response time was fast, guess it helps that I've had one before and never been in trouble?  But when we actually sat down, talked about flights and purchased the tickets?  Yeah...I had virtually no reaction, until today, two days later, it's finally setting in. I'm going home!

ramblings from days gone by...

The sun is setting already.  Too soon, say I. It seems just a few minutes ago when I opened my eyes to this day, to these few hours I pretend to be alive.  All too soon, and yet sometimes I feel it is not soon enough, will I be able to close my eyes once more, and be gone unto the oblivion which I seek. 

Burned Out - Burned Up

Burned out...that's a good term for it.  Maybe I flew so high on all of those emotions those years ago and then like Icarus, I burned up that which was holding me up.

i wonder...

To see a world in a grain of sand,

And a heaven in a wild flower,

Hold infinity in the palm of your hand,

And eternity in an hour.

~          William Blake Auguries of Innocence